疫情日记：三月二十一日——三月二十四日

        三月二十三日

坐标英国大学小镇，人口五万。

作者：凉皮

最近一直在琢磨也在联系给本地医院捐赠防护物资的事儿，不少网上看到的英国医护照片都没有任何防护，看着太让人难过了。问了一圈直接间接认识的人，没找到哪个人说本地NHS能接收民间捐赠，伦敦那边医院倒是早开了民间捐赠，应该是病人太密集，防护物资用得太快一下子供给不足了。这要不是被逼急了，也不会公开受赠，和武汉当初一样。正当我急得跟没头苍蝇似的时候，卫生部长早上发通告说大批防护物资24小时内发放各地医院，又看到一篇针对医护级别口罩的科普文说，我现在所能找到的口罩，KN95或者其他各类N95，其实都不足够保护战斗在新冠一线的医护。好吧，我选择信政府了，不瞎忙了，信政府，得永生......

本地医院工作朋友告诉我，昨天医院死了三个病例，两个在救护车上就死了，另一个上了呼吸机半小时就死了。其他细节我没问，也不想问，准备睡前喝点小酒，催眠。

今日英国数据，确诊6650，死亡335。

三月二十一日 美国加州硅谷

作者：红豆姜撞奶

查邮件看见今天的校报，跟进了昨天说的斯坦福医院检测报告上季节性冠状病毒和新冠状病毒引起病人误解的事，现在医院已经不再通知季节性冠状病毒的结果了，只通知新冠状病毒阴性或阳性，另外，那位不知病源的学生的父亲是南加州一间医院的儿科医生，一听这位学生给他讲的这个情况，马上明白怎么回事，因为他所在的医院发的报告也是这样的，他马上和医院沟通，在报告上季节性冠状病毒下面做了详细的说明，可惜的是，因为这件事，学生的父亲要自我隔离两周了，又少了一个可以上岗的医生。

打开电视果不其然看见新泽西州下了禁足令，新泽西日增加病例数已经超过加州，估计明天总病例数排名加州就要掉到第四了，除此以外，其它各州增加都很快，应该是检测速度上来了，也说明其实扩散得很厉害了，我估计美国病例数会在八万左右徘徊，纽约、新泽西和康州所在的三州地区要占到一半以上，保佑那边的家人和朋友一定要好好的。

这时收到刚搬到纽约的朋友的短信，说他住在康州的老母亲有流感症状，预约了做新冠病毒检测，可是连续两天都是还没排到她，试剂盒就用完了。刚好电视上CNN采访俄亥俄州的州长，也是说试剂盒不够用，这个州长是共和党，这次川普总不能说民主党拿试剂盒这件事攻击他了。

周初六郡宣布原地避难令的时候我是打算周末开出六郡之外找个地方徒步的，现在行政令覆盖到全加州，去哪都不好了，总不能开4个小时到内华达去。好在我们街道旁边就有一条溪边的步行径，通往谷歌旁边的一个湖和高尔夫球场，于是下午就和老公出去走了两个小时，这是符合规定的，住一起的人不需要保持社交距离。

这条步行径的前面一半是单车和人共享的，骑车的、走路的、遛狗的、一家大小一起的、成双结对的、独自的人比想象的多多了，看来大家都需要出来放放风，不过要保持至少6尺的距离大多数情况下还不是问题，就是走横跨高速的天桥时有单车同时经过的话距离不够。溪对面的野生动物保留地中间的小径不允许带狗进入，人就很少了，看见的都是动物，遍地的肥鹅，走的时候要盯着脚下不要踩雷，还第一次在这边看见了一群兔子，发现这野生的兔子，怎么看也和萌没有关系，用彪悍来形容更合适，远远还看见一只白鹭。

虽不是晴天，阴天里草地显得更绿，而且这潮湿的空气闻着有点小时候的广州冬天的味道，现在的广州高楼、汽车太多，味道不一样了。刚从纽约搬来湾区的时候非常不习惯，觉得这就是一个尴尬的城乡结合部，既没有都市的热闹，又没有乡村的宁静，慢慢对这个地方了解了以后才体会到了这里的好处，其中之一，就是文明生活所需要的便利和远离人群的宁静只不过是在家门口的不同方向，很多东西，都是需要时间来发现的，保留一双爱探索的眼睛很重要。

碎片化的岁月静好

3月23日星期一， 冷雨

坐标：费城西郊L镇

作者：开洋蒲菜

昨夜是我那么多天来第一次睡满了五个小时，尽管是由几个碎片化的小憩累积而成。这个世界现在充满了碎片，碎片化的热带森林（Science Advances  11 Mar 2020: 

DOI: 10.1126/sciadv.aax8574）,

碎片化的信息，碎片化的阅读，碎片化的时间。。。硬生生地将优雅恬适的静好岁月碎片化成一地鸡毛。

不过，碎片化睡足了的我立马就像一个满血复活的小强，斗志昂扬地开始新的一周中的第一天——以瑜伽的方式。Keep的记录中上一次瑜伽练习还是在2019年10月6号。以前一般都是力量训练和柔韧训练交替进行。基于对自己现在状态的清醒认识，今天我做的是一套28分钟的减压放松。

嗯嗯，做的时候，觉得自己哪儿哪儿都咯着我不能往下往前往左往右。虽说应该专注，我的脑洞还是不由的大开，想起了可爱的巴巴家族，只是我不再是巴巴拉拉，而变成了曲线并不婀娜的巴巴妈妈。

运动完也才八点不到。将早餐送给还在主卧闭关的先生之后，我自己也开始一边啃Corn Muffin一边用iPen在Pad上修改批注博士生W的毕业论文。哥哥这周是spring break，没有课。妹妹学校所谓的远程教育其实就是老师们每天布置一堆作业让他们完成，然后他们用电邮传给老师。因此他们俩这周都可以睡觉睡到自然醒。

我工作了一会儿，电脑上弹出一封电邮——一位在local做医生的校友请求我们从实验室调拨捐赠防护器材给他们。因为我的Lab有一个简易的超净室，所以我有clean room使用的防护服和脚套，也有防护目镜和手套。我于是给博士生AC发了个电邮，请他清点一下实验室的防护器材，我们每样只留三套，剩下来全捐给这个校友。毕竟学校要整个shut down到五月底，短时间内我们也不会用到这些防护器材。

十点以后孩子们陆陆续续醒了。各自吃了早饭之后，就都开始在电脑上忙活自己的功课。春假中的哥哥有点像个没头苍蝇，心心念念地想打游戏。我于是建议他自己拟个每天的计划表，经我过目后定了下来，大致包括读书、写作、练习flute、数学、以及中文。只要他把自己每天所计划的事情做完了，就可以打游戏。下午他还第一次跟着教练上了云Karate课，让专项为游泳的妹妹羡慕不已。我开玩笑的建议妹妹就在我的大床上扑腾四肢摸拟游泳。

宅在家里的时间虽然是细水长流，但也过得飞快。一转眼又到晚饭时间了。午饭我为大家做了凉面。晚饭则是每天最正式的一餐了。今天的主菜打算用空气炸锅做椒盐鸡腿，再配一个蔬菜一个汤。冰箱的冷藏室几乎全空了，下一轮网购的食物要周三才到。已经十天没有鸡蛋了，蔬菜也只剩下不到十棵已经被扒了外层大叶子的上海青菜心，一根莴苣，一把四季豆，几根平菇，和两个青椒。齐秦唱——没有你的日子里，我会更加珍惜自己。我此刻想的是——没有鸡蛋的日子里，我会更加创意做饭。我又打开冷冻柜，扒拉半天，竟然找到了一包冷冻的干丝，于是心里有了底。将一大半的干丝配上龙虾仁，黑木耳，平菇丝还有化了冻的豌豆仁，做成一道大煮干丝。另外再用剩下的干丝加上几根菜叶子，凑成一锅汤。这就是我们今天的的晚餐。

（截至2020年3月23日23:39 EDT，美国确诊46,376人，死亡585人，治愈314人。宾州确诊698人，死亡6人。蒙县确诊136人，死亡1人。）

March 23, Monday

Western Suburb of Philadelphia

Author：Cupcake

Everyone’s started to adapt to the changes now.

I don’t know whether to be sad or happy that I now have more things to do. I guess I'm sad because it was quite nice just watching movies all day with no responsibilities. But I'm also pretty happy that now I actually have something to do and I won’t be bored out of my mind.

Piano class, which I begged mom to start at age 4,  is now on Skype, and online school has already started for about a week. I still don’t think there’s any possible way to do swimming though. I’ve also been going to church online along with my family. My brother started doing karate through video chats and it's kind of funny to see him practicing in our living room trying not to punch the tv.

Like I said, everybody is adapting.

Today, Governor Wolf announced that all statewide schools are shutting down until at least April 6! That means school is closing for even longer! I immediately went to check my school website and my school district is closed until April 13! 

Should I be sad, worried, depressed, and feeling unsafe?

Maybe I should, but I actually don’t really feel sad, worried, depressed, and unsafe. Maybe that’s because I’ve lived quite an uneventful life without that many dangers and only unimportant things to worry about. Maybe that’s because my life hasn’t really been affected badly by the virus yet. I’m not sure. My parents are definitely very cautious and worried about everything, so, you know, they do the worrying for me. 

Just kidding. 

I guess I’m just not that worried because I feel like with all this going on, life’s gonna go on anyways, so why spend all your time worrying? As long as you are safe, you know what you need to do and all the important information, and everything is okay so far, just try to ignore your worries for once! I mean, of course there’s a lot of “ifs”, but an “if” is exactly what it is-- it’s a possibility. That means the bad things you’re worried about might not happen, so just move your eyes away from whatever screen they’re glued to and enjoy the day for once or something, obviously staying in your yard.

Anyways, while everyone else is already pretty much done adapting, I’m just following along with them. For me, it’s not that hard to adapt because in a way everything is basically being taken away from me, leaving me with a lot of free time. It’s like if you made a schedule of my “old” life, it would be packed, but if you made a schedule of my “now” life, there literally wouldn’t be anything in it. Just an empty sheet of paper with a couple jotted notes of assignments due and online skype sessions.

I think the thing I miss most about school (not that I miss much about it...) is my friends. It was always fun to hang out together and make each other laugh. We do have ways to keep in contact with each other now, but it isn’t the same.

Somehow I know that when my old life resumes, everything and everyone is going to be different, even if I’m back to where I was before. But it might not be different in a bad way! It’ll just be different because everybody and everything has changed.

Oh yeah, and I didn’t fail my math assignment today! (Not like I did that any other day… *cough *cough)

March 24, Monday

Western Suburb of Philadelphia

Author：Cupcake

Today was pretty boring. Other than my piano class, playing tennis, and doing homework, I didn’t really do anything else. 

I stayed home all day, going outside to hit the tennis ball against our garage door once a while in the driveway since I don’t really have any other way to exercise. It’s actually kind of physically taxing, especially when I try to purposely hit the ball at hard angles so I have to run from left to right and back around again.

I mean, hey, at times like this, you’ve gotta get a bit more creative in your methods of exercise!

Everything is just so… calm right now. It’s almost like the calm-before-the-storm type of calm, but that really doesn’t make it less boring. I wonder which is worse: feeling so tired you feel like you can’t go on or so bored and unproductive that you feel like a complete idiot?

Anyways, it was a Tuesday today, so that was the day we had to take out the trash. Since the trash cans were passed by a lot of people and they’re pretty disgusting and dirty in general, we had to wear gloves and everything. It was sort of funny trying to open the door with my elbow because I couldn’t infect the door handle with the germs on my gloves.

Then, after we got inside, we took off the gloves, threw them in the trash, and went to wash our hands anyways, even though we wore gloves. I know that’s just in case, but I’m kind of getting sick of the hand washing. Before the coronavirus became a stay-at-home-or-die kind of thing, dad ran to CVS to confiscate the last four remaining bottles of hand sanitizer on the shelf and put them on our living room table. Sometimes I glance longingly at the bottles, but dad says they’re there for backup and when we run out of running water. So we have to stick with scrubbing your hands for at least twenty seconds while singing happy birthday twice under your breath.

It just gets kind of annoying because you have to do it so many times a day. I now automatically groan when I see a bar of soap or hear the words “wash your hands!”, but then I suck it up because I know we’re only doing this to keep ourselves safe, plastering a did-I-just-groan look on my face. If I don’t I’m going to get a whole other lecture about handwashing. If there’s something more annoying than washing your hands ten times a day it's getting a lecture on it ten times a day.

That still doesn’t help me from pointing out there are two perfectly full bottles of hand sanitizer that can clean our hands in about five seconds.

3月24日  晴 周二

坐标：纽约长岛

羊肉粉

这几天无论个人、社区还是整个美国都发生了不少事。

先说个人，在总统在推特上直呼Chinese Virus，让整个美国亚裔群体感到不安时，我家房子的前后门锁都出了问题，同时烘干机故障，无法为衣服进一步消毒，甚至两个浴室都有不同程度的问题（完美诠释“屋漏偏逢连夜雨”），幸亏还有亲戚在美国，连夜把孩子送了过去，再一一修理；接着腰又扭伤，一两天内几乎半身不遂，一时心灰意冷，爱谁谁去。

再说社区，总统的“中国病毒”言论一出，华人纷纷自危，买枪、练枪、成立互助SOS群、脸书推特发声……同时也想到了支持社区尤其是医院，树立华人形象，积极捐赠，行动力非常强（因为个人最近诸多不顺，没有认真跟进形势，保守估计长岛地区华人的各种捐款加物资，几天内价值就上了百万级别）。在美20年，可以明显感受到华人在政治上逐渐成熟勇敢，从这个角度来说，还是觉得自豪的；但从另一个角度讲，这种打完上半场，打下半场，最后或许还两边不讨好，全场挨打，实在也是移民的悲哀。今天总统讲话，说要保护亚裔美国人，我居然有点觉得，是咱们保护费交够了，才得以被正名……

最后说国家，自从纽约第一例确诊开始，人数直线攀升，初期跟华盛顿州竞争高下，现在已遥遥领先，就长岛的一个郡（nassau county）的确诊人数都超过整个加州；这一两周股市尸横遍野，S&P500跌回总统就任前，small business纷纷关门，对于一些人甚至出现了“有可能得病”可怕，还是“肯定没饭吃”可怕的两难选择。美国人是不存钱的，也是没见过尸体一具具搬出去烧掉的，未来会怎样，谁也不好说。

可是，就算生活这张袄已经爬满密密麻麻虱子，大自然还是给我们的灵魂提供了栖息之所。前天的海边，海滩上稀稀落落的人，我一个人爬到礁石最前端，百无聊赖地想把自己也坐成一块石头：

陆地上太挤了，上天也不错啊：

三周前朋友从维也纳hotel Sacher带来的蛋糕，儿子谨慎地看了一眼，问“欧洲来的，能吃吗？”提醒完毕，其实也不是很想知道答案，立马和弟弟开吃……

（截止3月24日，美国确诊54772例，死亡740例；纽约州确诊26374例，死亡232例；Suffolk County确诊1880例，死亡17例。）