忏悔录 Confessions | BookⅠChapter17 成绩特殊

Chapter 17

成绩特殊

Bear with me, my God, while I say somewhat of my wit, Thy gift, and on what dotages I wasted it. For a task was set me, troublesome enough to my soul, upon terms of praise or shame, and fear of stripes, to speak the words of Juno, as she raged and mourned that she could not "This Trojan prince from Latinum turn."

我的天主，请许我一谈你所赐与我的聪慧和我滥用聪明而做出的傻事。有人给我一项使我灵魂不安的功课，做得好可得荣誉，不好则失颜面，并以鞭挞威吓我。这课文是叫我写朱诺女神因不能“阻止特洛伊人的国王进入意大利”[32]愤怒痛心而说的话。

Which words I had heard that Juno never uttered; but we were forced to go astray in the footsteps of these poetic fictions, and to say in prose much what he expressed in verse. And his speaking was most applauded, in whom the passions of rage and grief were most preeminent, and clothed in the most fitting language, maintaining the dignity of the character.

我知道朱诺并未说这类话，但我们不得不想入非非，追随着神话诗歌的踪迹，把原是用韵的诗，另用散文敷演。谁能体会角色的身份，用最适当的词句描摹出哀愤的情绪，这人便算高才。

What is it to me, O my true life, my God, that my declamation was applauded above so many of my own age and class is not all this smoke and wind and was there nothing else where on to exercise my wit and tongue? Thy praises, Lord, Thy praises might have stayed the yet tender shoot of my heart by the prop of Thy Scriptures; so had it not trailed away amid these empty trifles, a defiled prey for the fowls of the air. For in more ways than one do men sacrifice to the rebellious angels.

我朗诵时，听到极盛的喝采声，胜过其他许多同学和竞赛者。唉，我真正的生命、我的天主，这为我有什么用处？这一切不是烟云吗？为训练我的聪明和口才，没有其他方法吗？主，对你的赞颂，圣经中对你的赞颂之辞，本该支撑我心苗所长的枝叶，不至于被浮华所攫去，为飞鸟所啄食；因为祭祀叛逆之神不仅限于一种方式。