忏悔录第14章 The Confessions Chapter（14）不爱希腊文

不爱希腊文

Chapter14

Why then did I hate the Greek classics, which have the like tales? For Homer also curiously wove the like fictions, and is most sweetlyvain, yet was he bitter to my boyish taste. And so I suppose would Virgil be to Grecian children, when forced to learn him as I was Homer. Difficulty,in truth, the difficulty of a foreign tongue, dashed, as it were, with gall all the sweetness of Grecian fable. For not one word of it did I understand, and to make me understand I was urged vehemently with cruel threats and punishments. Time was also (as an infant) I knew no Latin; but this I learned without fear or suffering, by mere observation, amid the caresses of my nursery and jests of friends, smiling and sportively encouraging me. This I learned without any pressure of punishment to urge me on, for my heart urged me to give birth to its conceptions, which I could only do by learning words not of those who taught, but of those who talked with me; in whose ears also I gave birth to the thoughts, whatever I conceived. No doubt, then, that a free curiosity has more force in our learning these things, than a frightful enforcement. Only this enforcement restrains the rovings of that freedom, through Thy laws, O my God, Thy laws, from the master's cane to the martyr's trials, being able to temper for us a wholesome bitter, recalling us to Thyself from that deadly pleasure which lures us from Thee.

为何当时我对于讴歌这些故事的希腊文觉得憎恨呢？的确荷马很巧妙地编写了这些故事，是一个迷人的小说家，但对童年的我却真讨厌。我想味吉尔对于希腊儿童也如此，他们被迫读味吉尔，和我被迫读荷马一样。读外国文字真是非常艰苦，甜蜜的希腊神话故事上面好像撒上了一层苦胆。我一个字也不识，人们便用威吓责罚来督促我读。当然拉丁文起初我也不识，但我毫无恐惧，不受磨折地，在乳母们哄逗下，在共同笑语之中，在共同游戏之时，留心学会了。我识字是没有遇到也没有忍受强迫责罚，我自己的意志促引我产生概念，但不可能不先学会一些话，这些话，不是从教师那里，而是从同我谈话的人那里学来的，我也把我的思想说给他们听。

于此可见，识字出于自由的好奇心，比之因被迫而勉强遵行的更有效果。但是，天主啊，你用你的法律，从教师的戒尺到殉教者所受的酷刑，使胁迫约束着好奇心的奔放，你的法律能渗入有益的辛酸，促使我们从离间你我的宴安鸩毒中重新趋向到你身畔。