Chapter 5 
洁子心灵
Oh! that I might repose on Thee! Oh! that Thou wouldest enter into my heart, and inebriate it, that I may forget my ills, and embrace Thee, my sole good! 
谁能使我安息在你怀中？谁能使你降入我的心灵，使我酣畅，使我忘却忧患，使我抱持你作为我的唯一至宝？
What art Thou to me? In Thy pity, teach me to utter it. Or what am I to Thee that Thou demandest my love, and, if I give it not, art wroth with me, and threatenest me with grievous woes? Is it then a slight woe to love Thee not? Oh! for Thy mercies' sake, tell me, O Lord my God, what Thou art unto me. Say unto my soul, I am thy salvation. So speak, that I may hear. Behold, Lord, my heart is before Thee; open Thou the ears thereof, and say unto my soul, I am thy salvation. After this voice let me haste, and take hold on Thee. Hide not Thy face from me. Let me die- lest I die- only let me see Thy face.
你对我算什么？求你怜悯我使我能够说出。我对你算什么，而你竟命我爱你？如果我不如此，你就对我发怒，并用严重的灾害威胁我。如果我不爱你，这仅仅是小不幸吗？我的主，天父，请因你的仁慈告诉我，你和我有什么关系。请告诉我的灵魂说：“我是你的救援。”[11]请你说，让我听到。我的心倾听着，请你启我心灵的双耳，请你对我的灵魂说：“我是你的救援”。我要跟着这声音奔驰，我要抓住你。请你不要对我掩住你的面容。让我死，为了不死，为了瞻仰你的圣容。
Narrow is the mansion of my soul; enlarge Thou it, that Thou mayest enter in. It is ruinous; repair Thou it. It has that within which must offend Thine eyes; I confess and know it. But who shall cleanse it? or to whom should I cry, save Thee? Lord, cleanse me from my secret faults, and spare Thy servant from the power of the enemy. I believe, and therefore do I speak. Lord, Thou knowest. Have I not confessed against myself my transgressions unto Thee, and Thou, my God, hast forgiven the iniquity of my heart? I contend not in judgment with Thee, who art the truth; I fear to deceive myself; lest mine iniquity lie unto itself. Therefore I contend not in judgment with Thee; for if Thou, Lord, shouldest mark iniquities, O Lord, who shall abide it?
我的灵魂的居处是狭隘的，不相称你降来，请你加以扩充。它已经毁败，请你加以修葺。它真是不堪入目：我承认，我知道。但谁能把它清除呢？除了向你外，我向谁呼号呢？“主啊，求你清除我隐秘的过错，不要由于我因他人而犯下的过犯加罪于你的仆人。”[12]“我相信，因此我说”。[13]主啊，你完全了解。我向你承认我的过犯后，“你不是就赦免了我心里的罪孽？”[14]你是真理，我绝不和你争辩，我也不愿欺骗我自己，“不要让我的罪恶向自己撒谎。”[15]我决不向你争辩，因为，“主、主，你若考察我们的罪孽，谁能站得住？”[16]
[11] 见《诗篇》34首3节。
[12] 见《诗篇》18首14节。
[13] 同上，115首1节。
[14] 同上，31首5节。
[15] 同上，26首12节。
[16] 同上，129首3节。
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