忏悔录 Confessions | BookⅡ Chapter6 自讼自承

BookⅡ Chapter6

自讼自承

What shall I render unto the Lord, that whilst my memory recalls these things, my soul is not affrighted at them? I will love Thee, O Lord, and thank Thee, and confess unto Thy name; because Thou hast forgiven me these so great and heinous deeds of mine. To Thy grace I ascribe it, and to Thy mercy, that Thou hast melted away my sins as it were ice. To Thy grace I ascribe also what so ever I have not done of evil; for what might I not have done, who even loved a sin for its own sake?

我追溯以往种种，我的心灵能一无忧惧，“主啊，我怎样报答你的恩泽？”[12]我要热爱你、感谢你、歌颂你的圣名，因为你赦免了我的罪恶。我的罪恶所以云消雾散，都出于你的恩赐与慈爱，而我所以能避免不犯，也出于你的恩赐，我能为罪恶而爱罪恶，那么还有什么干不出来呢？

Yea, all I confess to have been forgiven me; both what evils I committed by my own wilfulness, and what by Thy guidance I committed not. What man is he, who, weighing his own infirmity, dares to ascribe his purity and innocency to his own strength; that so he should love Thee the less, as if he had less needed Thy mercy, where by Thou remittest sins to those that turn to Thee? For who so ever, called by Thee, followed Thy voice, and avoided those things which he reads me recalling and confessing of myself, let him not scorn me, who being sick, was cured by that Physician, through whose aid it was that he was not, or rather was less, sick and for this let him love Thee as much, yea and more; since by whom he sees me to have been recovered from such deep consumption of sin, by Him he sees himself to have been from the like consumption of sin preserved.

我认识到不论是我自动犯的罪，或由于你的引导而避免不犯的罪，一切都已获得赦免。谁想到自己的软弱无能，敢把纯洁天真归功于自己的努力，敢少爱你一些，好像你对待回头改过者的宽大慈爱对他并不那么需要？谁听从你的呼唤，随声而跟从你，避免了我所回忆而忏悔的罪恶，请他不要讥笑我病后受到这位良医的治疗而痊愈；他的不害病，或至少不生这样的重病，也应归功于这位良医；希望他看到我罪恶的痼疾霍然而愈，看到自身没有染上罪恶的沉疴，能同样爱你，能更热爱你。

[12] 见《诗篇》115首12节。